Dear Diary,

The day which is important to many people on Earth is coming up in a day. I have done extensive research on this holiday and I have decided to ignore the arguments that have come up between Ishida-kun and I for this reason. I've become tired on this game of cat and mouse of insulting one another any longer. Everything I say is so at-the-moment, Ishida-kun takes everything too serious for my tastes.

February 14, Saint Valentine's Day, which is when lovers express their feelings to each other. I've given this topic much thought and I know do feel something... deeper than pure lust for Ishida-kun; I will not lie to myself- maybe there is more to us Espadas than originally thought. (The things that happened between Nnorita and Neliel Tu before he came to me to attack her, are things I cannot label simply as black and white.) And it is not right for me to sit here and be so cruel to him now, when something of such importance to humans is approaching.

So I've been locking myself in my laboratory, leaving Ishida on his own, to create some chocolate and candy to give him. I've found many different types of recipes which I'm hoping he approves. I do not know his tastes of these confectioneries as well as I do with his sexual fantasies. White chocolate seems like it would suit him well...

I do hope these offerings will, end in some enjoyable things later in the day.

I know this is a silly action to participant in, and not at all a part of my usual character. But something is changing and I don't know how much power I have to control is any longer- or if I really want to.

Aizen-sama has not at all been happy with my actions lately. I've chosen to ignore him for the most part.

Now my laboratory is stained brown from this mess. I need a bath.

Dear Diary,

I'm grateful to have read such a straight-forward assessment of our current...situation, Szayel. Had I known myself to be such a burden, I would have easily resolved the issue. After all, my presence here seems to be affecting the accuracy of your research: despite your annoyance of the concern I bear towards those most important to me, it's done nothing to curb the frequency of our sexual encounters. I'm fully aware that knowing my friends whereabouts can not change what's occurred between us, but even you must know that it doesn't change the fact of Aizen's inevitable defeat. In retrospect, I allowed myself to get carried away and the consequences of my actions fall solely on me. This includes any wanning emotional attachment to you.

As a man of science, I would think you of all people would see the importance of "labels" (and no, I was not going for a clever pun, even if it WAS quite good). Being able to identify something such as sexual preference is in no way placing a restriction on it. It's done in the hopes of creating a better understanding. Many things appear to be pointless to you, the majority being anything outside your area of expertise. The sense of superiority you feel will always be a mystery to me since it's obviously not well earned. Does the idea of placing a name to your orientation scare you so much? In my own "research" I've come to the conclusion that you'd rather play along to gratify your desires rather than submit to any sign of authority.

The very idea that you would base love's development on intercourse alone proves how ignorant you truly are. There are several emotions I feel when confronted with the reality of our situation, but I can guarantee that love is not one of them. Give me some credit, as I've evolved enough to walk upright on two feet.. Just how far below you do you see humans, anyway? YOU SEEM TO CONSTANTLY FORGET I AM A QUINCY. THE LAST QUINCY. ABOVE AVERAGE! When all is said and done, I still remain your enemy. This arrangement remains temporary, as does the time you have left to gloat.

You'll understand if I have no sympathy for any punishment you may receive. I'd go so far as to say you'd not only like it, but return here requesting I do the same. It's alarming to think that I'm rather used to your masochistic tendencies. The ability to get hard so quickly while someone pulls at you with forceps.. But at least you swallow when the time comes. You know I'm unable to sleep when the sheets become sticky.

Catering to my needs like that...are you sure your not the one falling in love?
How can you identify what you've never experienced?

Dear Diary--

I have noticed over the following weeks which Uyruu Ishida has come into my possession -for a lack of better words- that things have become increasingly tedious for me. That boy finally surcomes to me after all this time and then finds the needs to bring up useless topics such as his former comrades. I know nothing of their whereabouts other from the information I receive from my surveillance programs and anything that Aizen-sama has decided to share. Either way, I don't see the reasoning in why he should worry about them further. May they be alive or dead- will that really change the fact that we have had sex now and that he shows no signs in leaving me or Hueco Mundo in the immediate future? There are so many other things I can busy his mind over.

It is interesting that my little Quincy would bring up something such as his 'feelings' concerning our so called 'relationship' and those labels which humans force on each other. From what I've researched on the words of 'gay' 'straight' and 'bi,' in the terms of physical human relationships, I must agree when I say they seem so pointless. Having such a term placed on your person changes nothing in what your body desires. It changes nothing for me or my lust for Ishida-kun.

Speaking of desires, I can't help but wonder if it is possible that Ishida-kun as begun to think that I might be in love with him. I am an Espada-- emotions such as love are things we are unable to experience. While I must say that we do feel certain things that may be called pride or anger in some sense, there is no need for such human feelings as love. I have wanted Ishida-kun this entire time based solely on my body's desires to have him in my bed. Which, may I add, is the best sex I've had in a very long time. When he sucks my cock--ohmygod With the way he has become so defensive in trying to pursued me in the fact he has only submitted to me because of his own desires, makes me wonder.

Humans are emotionally weak beings and are unable to fully control how they begin to feel about certain things or people. I know that Ishida-kun -Quincy or not- is no different from the rest of those humans. Though the idea that he has very possibly fallen in love with me, excites something inside of me.

Unfortunately, because of all the fun I've been indulging myself in with Ishida-kun, I've put off all of my current research and assignments from Aizen-sama. I know I will be punished for my behavior, but I can't bring myself to really care all that much. I was given this power in the first place-- no one including Aizen-sama himself --can take it away from me now.

Dear Diary,

It's been a while since I last updated this journal. I feel as if my actions as of late have been so erratic and impulsive, it'd be strange to write them down. But this is something I feel I have to do. I'm sure I'll look back on these entries and wonder if the words are even mine. Especially since I must confess that I am attracted to Szayel Aporro. Very much so. While his personality is wanting at times and the superiority in his voice rubs me the wrong way (I'd like to think I wasn't half this bad back home!), what he does when we're alone...I don't think I've cum harder in my life.

I'm sure I sound like some kind of lovesick puppy-- please don't mistake this as the case. I've been thinking things over and have determined that this relationship is based on nothing more than mutual need. A way to release our frustrations (sexual or otherwise) in a somewhat healthy nature. Two attractive males sharing closed quarters in the heat of battle...it's only natural that things would progress this way. As a result I've no intention of assigning a label to myself as "gay", "straight", or "bi". In the end, does it really matter? The strength of the Quincy is in following their instincts -- standing firm in their decisions.

What concerns me most right now, is in the days since Szayel and I, er, consummated our relationship, this is the first time I've thought about my comrades. I have no idea where they are or what condition they're in. My spiritual powers have been so weakened by this environment that the most I can do is sense whether they're alive or not. However, Ms.Kuchiki's reiastu is so faint... Are our opponents so powerful that Kurosaki hasn't made more progress in the time since I've been gone?? I can only trust that he's at least managed to make some sort of contact with Inoue. By admission Szayel has stated that he knows nothing about her current activity. I'll allow myself to rest safe in the knowledge that in the least, she's still alive. It eases the guilt I feel somewhat, but not completely. Which is amusing when you consider the amount of distractions that surround me.


Szayel, if you're reading this (as I'm sure you are) this something I will state only once.
If I choose to submit, it's to my desire, never to you.

Dear Diary,

Last night was over and above my expectations of how Ishida-kun would perform in bed.

I'll leave the details to disclose at another time. But Ishida-kun will not be sleeping much for the nights to come.

Szayel

Dear Dia--

YOU DID WHAT WHILE I WAS SLEEPING!?

WHAT IN GODS--
I CAN'T EVEN WRITE AN ENTRY RIGHT NOW.

Dear Diary,

#1 - There is no "lapse of judgment" on my part and I'm in no way 'insane'; I'm just growing bored of playing this game of 'beating around the bush.' Can we not just be blunt with each other for both our sanities? This is becoming truly annoying.

#2 - There are more flavors in this box than watermelon. Bubblegum, Cherry are available if those are the preference. I guess I'm personally partial to watermelon.

#3 - While the fears of unprotected sex never really crossed my mind- they are just an item that ended up in my possession. If he wishes for me to just fuck him without the somewhat-annoying constraints of a condom. I'm more than willing.


Those items Ishida-kun... pointed out in his entry- I'm not quite sure are the ones that would be of the best use for us. Truthfully, I'm not much for that fish or duck toy. I could see the possible appeal for them though. I've taken the time to look at that site quite thoroughly and have found the following items.





They should all be arriving in the next week and by then I would hope that Ishida-kun and I have already done more than taking about sex like we have for the past weeks.

Unfortunately, when Ishida-kun did finally remove himself from that room, a matter of hours at times does feel like an eternity for those unable to have contact to whom we wish to he completely ignored my comments about the condoms I had discovered. (Or at least pretended to because he was quite vocal about them in his entry) He went so far as to just collapse onto my bed and fall asleep without much of a word. So because I'm the sexually frustrated man I've been lately (for obvious reasons) I decided to have a little fun with Ishida-kun as he slept.

Unfortunately, he had decided to fall asleep on his stomach so I didn't have very much to work with that I had wished. But I- maybe I shouldn't write this down? let's just say that Ishida-kun's body is very responsive in his sleep (and the fact he moaned my name was almost too much to handle) and I don't know how much longer I can or want to hold out to get more than my figures into that ass of his.

As for the fitting- I'm ready to try on Ishida-kun's clothing whenever he wishes me to. I don't think I'll have a problem with me wearing some form fitting.

Oh dear- this entry has made me rather horny.

Dear Diary,

After reading the previous entry, I am relieved to find that my head isn't the only one being affected by whatever is in the air. SzayelApporo's lapse of judgment appears to be much worse than my own, evidenced by the fact that no SANE person would be so blatantly suggestive. Honestly, I'm not sure whether to be amused by the idea that even the Espada, who face danger on a daily basis, fear the consequences of unprotected sex, or annoyed by the idea that someone such as myself would be so easily seduced given the chance to sample an aged prophylactic. Really Szayel, if you are going to give that sort of invitation, at least make it sound appealing..?

While common sense dictates that I should stop encouraging this topic of conversation, I want to go on record stating that I have never been partial to watermelon. Assuming you suggested the flavor in connection to the color pink, I've done some research of my own and there are several choices available. Bubblegum, Cherry, and Strawberry are all acceptable alternatives that won't deviate from the (rather obvious) innuendo of matching one's head with the other. Though, on second thought, strawberry isn't very appealing either... Why am I listing my preferences??

I wish I could say that my search ended there, but upon browsing these sites, I came across a few other things:



Would you care to explain their appeal?
Something tells me even you would find these disturbing.

Also, I was able to finish a few of the garments that I've begun working on. In the short period of time I spent in the sewing room (and it was short Szayel, just a matter of hours), I've completed two pairs of slacks, one dress shirt, one casual top, and a vest that I'm quite proud of. One flaw I will admit to is that I'm stubborn. Once I commit myself to a task, I won't rest until I'm satisfied. The only problem I encountered was where to place the zippers so that they would not snag at the lace I used to line the inside. While I'm confident that everything will fit correctly, I'd still like to arrange for you to try them on so that I can make the final alterations. As for undergarments, you may want to wear something form fitting, as the pants do not leave much to the imagination.

Dear Diary,

These past few days have been heaven. After making breakfast (and many more meals after that I might add) for Ishida-kun and I, we have continued spending the remaining time together. Even though he continues to go on about hypnosis as the reason for his actions and feelings; he is just hiding how he really feels behind never-ending excuses. It is something that I've started to find endearing about my cute little Quincy. Though I wish at times we wouldn't make me work so hard and just come out and tell me that he loves me enjoys my company and attention.

The fitting went by very smoothly. Ishida-kun is as precise in his measurements as expected and I was was very glad to hear he took my fitting so seriously. I greatly enjoyed the feeling of his hands moving over my body, which was an important reason for completely undressing (save my underwear that remained, for obvious reasons) He worked quickly, not letting his hands linger longer than needed. It didn't go unnoticed to me the few times he did let his hands rest on certain parts of my body. Hips, shoulders, thighs. If he didn't act so serious over making my outfits, I would have told him to not bother anymore and let us to some other important things.

I've become somewhat bored and lonely today which is part of my reasoning for writing this now. Ishida-kun has found the need to lock himself in the small room I put the sewing equipment in since breakfast. He only allowed my entrance with a small lunch during this time and now with the day coming to an end, I'm tired of waiting for him any longer. He needs not to finish the items today or even tomorrow. I'm in no real hurry- unless he is eager to dress me in his outfits. That I will not deny him.

His comment about measuring several attractive people before coming to me has been plaguing my mind. Jealously is not becoming of someone as handsome as me and I do not enjoy feeling jealous. (but maybe it's expected in these situations) I may have to ask for further details in this topic...

I was looking around my bedroom today (being as I had nothing else to entertain myself with- my research held no interest to me today) and I came across something which I had sworn was lost. My pink-watermelon flavored condoms. Oh, Ishida-kun will surely enjoy this evening when I get him back into this bedroom. He'll need something to relax his mind- he seems so distraught since our fitting.

♥
Szayelaporro

Dear Diary,

Several days have passed since I last updated this journal. I'm afraid in my effort to preempt boredom, I've taken on several projects, meaning that other activities have gone neglected. However, it's more important now than ever, that I keep a record of these events while they are taking place. As strange as it seems, something has caused my otherwise reliable judgment to become clouded. I haven't been thinking clearly. This can only be a direct result of the increased comfort of my surroundings. Perhaps I'm under some sort of hypnosis similar to what took place in the Soul Society. Or somehow my ability to function intelligently has been damaged and therefore I am no longer capable of thinking rationally. Maybe...maybe he's been putting something in my meals! I knew I shouldn't have allowed him to cook so often! Even if the food was delicious.

There has to be a way to explain why I am allowing myself to feel the way I...feel.

And even while I torture myself analyzing my relationship friendship acquaintance with Szayel, numerous garments fitted to his exact measurements are lying across my work area. As if thinking back to that evening isn't degrading enough. Sewing for as long as I have, I've measured several people (several attractive people) in a manner that has been both mature and professional. Why I should find myself nervous and shaken around someone like him is anyone's guess. It took twice as long to make the correct assessments, which is a personal first since I usually estimate. His insistence on undressing before we began certainly did not help the situation...

Which brings me back to the point of this entry.
I must be delusional.


If I don't get out of here soon, I maybe end up doing something I'll enjoy I'll regret, once my bearings come back to me.

Dear Diary,

Today Aizen-sama called me and the rest of the Espada to a short meeting about nothing of importance to write in here. The thing to note is that when I was called away from Ishida-kun for this short time, he was worried enough to ask when I might be returning. He may deny such affections, but I know better. He enjoys playing with me and I enjoying the game.

I placed him in my own bedroom, for I didn't want Aizen-sama to try and do anything that might harm my dear experiment in my absence. So with the little time I had to ensure that Ishida didn't find anything I didn't him to, I left him to entertain himself.

I'm pleased to hear that he found the food I had left and enjoyed himself to it. Also, the view into Los Noches is an amazing one indeeed and this room was chosen based on that fact. I couldn't be more pleased that Ishida-kun appreciates the same things that I do. There is a reason we have been brought together like this.

I'm sorry that the majority of my reading material is not available in my bedroom. I house most of it in my laboratory and those books are nothing but research material. I doubt Ishida-kun could have found them very interesting.

I should have showed Ishida-kun where the bathroom and shower were located and the material to repair his outfit. How depressing.

I must say, after Aizen-sama's meeting, I feel very distressed and I must tell my little Quincy that I'm in dire need of rest and that when he awakes from is own nap (on my bed) that he does not bother me. When I am rested we can continue on to the fitting and maybe I can find out if he prefer briefs over boxers now that he knows my own preference.

Grantz

Dear Diary,

Today was surprisingly uneventful, due to Szayel Apporo's absence. Supposedly Aizen summoned the Espada together for briefing, but those were all the details volunteered to me before his departure. Upon reflection, I let my curiosity get the better of me in asking when he would be back, but the question was out before I could stop it. Not that I'm concerned on the Octava's behalf, mind you, but punctuality is of importance to me. While his reply is not worth recording here, as a result Szayel's fitting has been pushed back and I've been left to my own devices.

At least my first attempt to find something edible since arriving has proven fruitful. I know once he reads this I'll never hear the end of it, but Szayel's personal surroundings are actually quite becoming. After a small meal of rice with miso (there's still a bit extra if you're interested?), I was able to enjoy the view from the dining area over a small cup of tea. Desert as far as the eye can see, but the way the white walls reflect off the sand causes them to shine.

Reading material is scarce here, but I was able to find a few encyclopedias in which to indulge my interests. Being in the home of a man of knowledge, I expected to find much more. I can't begin to express my disappointment. I can only imagine what my grades will be like once the mission is over and we return home...

This is nonsense. I'm wasting time.

-Ishida

[PRIVATE]
I took the time while Szayel was gone to search for anything of interest, including any important information he's gathered over this time, but no such luck. There are several surveillance devices located in the rooms that are not locked and I'm hesitant to use my powers on the ones that are. Szayel is just as cunning as one would assume- he's left nothing out in the open for me to discover. Even going through his bureau has left me with no other knowledge than he seems to prefer briefs over boxers...

The bed where he sleeps is large. The material of the sheets appear to be satin or some other outlandish material. I myself prefer Eygptian cotton, but I suppose it's because I've never tried the other. Maybe I'll -

Dear Diary,

I wonder if my manner of speech is too much for my little Quincy to comprehend. Must I be even more straight forward? I do hope my little confession last night hasn't completely scared him away, there is still hope in the matter if he's willing to make a little creation for me. Perhaps this was a type of 'respect' I was talking about?

Yet I must confess, until last night I haven't been completely honest with myself. I haven't bothered to tell anyone (even this diary) of how difficult sleep come at night when my mind races on about Ishida-kun. They are thoughts that are better left unsaid. It is strange how one man does this to me, when a simple research project was more than enough to suffice. I only dream that I might have the same affect on him as well and I'm not alone in these troubles. The fact he does find an attraction to my words (and me as well?) sets my mind at ease on this subject for the moment.

Even so, things are on uncertain grounds for the two of us at the moment. I think Ishida-kun is unsure of how to react accordingly to me, while his current mission in saving Aizen-sama's women is so important to him. This is something I must alter if I am to get what I want in the end. Ishida-kun should have known that when I spoke of 'personal desires' his silly mission was not what I was referring to.

And yes, my apology was genuine. If you keep second guessing my actions towards you, we will never be able to trust each other. What a terrible thing to think about...

Szayelaporro

Dear Diary,

I'm finding myself growing more and more confused by the direction in which my correspondence with the Octava Espada has taken. Several key phrases come to mind: a common "respect" for one another? My beautiful (as we are referring to the masculine, I believe handsome would have been more appropriate) face? The intended "goal" of undressing--

I don't believe there is a need to elaborate further.

But what I find even more puzzling than SzayelApporo's words are my reaction to them. What should be immediate disgust at the idea of having any sort of interaction with my enemy, has been replaced by a strange sort of...well, flattery. It seems ironic that in the midst of battle I would have the fortune of coming across an individual who actually recognizes those with talent. These things are often overlooked in Karakura Town, replaced by excitement over the latest fad or trend, lasting only a short time before falling into teenage obscurity.

Still, I think it's overly familiar for one such as him to assume he knows anything about my "personal desires". Who's to say that I'm having difficulty fulfilling them? The objective I left home with remains the same, whether I am delayed by childish actions or not. Saving Inoue-san is my top priority. Escaping this maze you've constructed is my desire at present.


You'll understand if I have difficulty finding the 'lighter side' of this situation for the benefit of your amusement.
As for the apology offered earlier...

..is it genuine?


-Ishida

Dear Diary,

This seems to have become an annoying game of cat and mouse between Ishida-kun and I. Instead of gaining a common "respect" for which I had hoped we could have between each other- it is now an ongoing argument on our tactics in this tiresome battle. I had not expected such things to develop and I must say I am rather bothered by Ishida-kun's hostile attitude at the moment.

I don't think any of us Espada think of Aizen-sama tainting this world. He has only brought each of us power here in Hueco Mundo and in a sense giving us all lives- instead of the mindless existence of being Hollows. Here as I am, I'm able to indulge in my love for science without any constraints- except for the times which my position of the Octavo Espada must be lived up to. This battle with Ishida-kun and those others is one of those annoying predicaments.

I was not expecting such a use of dirty tactics by Ishida-kun, and that is my own fault. I had not truly thought out everything at that time and let myself be attacked openly, unable to defend myself. But I now understand the type of mind Ishida-kun has and the way he sees what is a good fight between men. He should know me well enough that, I am more than willing to talk about anything he might be interested in- I am first and foremost a man who does not mind talk when it is possible.

I can assure my little Quincy that these inescapable rooms are of my doing and of no concern to Aizen-sama. If I have not made my true intentions clear by now, I'm not sure if Ishida-kun will ever understand them. I had expected a quick mind to follow along with that beautiful face of his. I may have to make faster advancements to clear up any uncertainly.

I apologize for such an outlandish comment earlier. It was something I has said so off-handedly, that I meant no real harm in it. It seemed very obvious to me that such a style which Ishida-kun carries with himself could only be personally made. I myself have spent hours perfecting my own wardrobe, even though sewing is not quite a strong point. I again apologize for his ruined work though if he can remember- Ishida-kun showed up here already worse-for-wear. Which I have no doubt is the work of that disgusting whore Cirucci Thunderwitch. There is a reason she was such a number as 105- I hope that the Exequias followed out their job properly.

Getting him completely undressed is just one of many goals I have in my sight. It seems only natural being he has already had a grand view of my own body. There is no need to be prude anymore Quincy.

But games are so much more fun, you must lighten up about this situation Ishida-kun and just fulfill your own personal desires.


Don't be so uptight.
- Szayelaporro Grantz

Dear Diary,

Attacking from behind is no worse than attacking from above-- especially if it's for the sole purpose of looking down upon your opponent. I know moralizing at a time like this won't get me anywhere, but it certainly emphasizes just how much Aizen's dominance has tainted Hueco Mundo. If the idea of using pride as a weapon rather than a weakness looks appealing, then by all means, use what you must.

In regards to other things, if Szayel Apollo has fallen for any "bait" I've placed in front of him, perhaps it is due to his arrogance rather than any trickery on my part. The very idea that the thought crossed his mind is a confession of error. Said "trap" would have been easily avoidable, had he been paying attention. While the entire plan was not as successful as I would have hoped, it did help us gather some information of our own. Next time I shall save both Abarai and myself the trouble and just ask the things I'd like to know-- it seems the Arrancar have no qualms sharing information that pertains to themselves.

I admit that my curiosity about what exactly Szayel Apollo wants from me has worked to cloud my judgment. While escaping and locating Inoue-san should be our first priority, I find my mind wandering to the consequences of not reaching our goal. Being trapped in this maze for who knows how long. Is he actually manipulating the walls and paths likes he boasts, or is this another of Aizen's illusions, used on those who have only to glimpse his sword? A more disturbing thought is that if that is truly the case, we may not be the only ones subject to it... It would explain several things.

...

The last paragraph I subjected myself to reading is absolutely absurd. HOW COULD ANYONE BE EXPECTED TO 'TIDY UP' THEIR APPEARANCE AT A TIME LIKE THIS!? As if the idea of leaving mid-way through a battle to change clothing wasn't strange enough. As the host of this freak show you should have taken the time to make the amenities known. Besides, whether my clothes are bloodstained or not, they fit nicely because I am considered to be an excellent tailor. Knowing you to be someone who can appreciate it, I should also let you know that my garments are all hand sewn, custom designed to my tastes, and only one source of the anger I have directed at you-- especially now that you've destroyed what was several days work.

I should hope that you don't intend to completely undress me by the time this fight is over, to even the score. If the recent entries of this journal are any indication, your light-hearted words appear to carry a hidden meaning.


I don't know how much more patience I have for games, Aporro.

-Ishida

Dear Diary,

It seems I've haven't been taking this little game seriously enough. I might be a "man of science," but I never go out of my way to gather research over my newest 'subjects' without a logical reason. This Shinigami and Quincy that have found their way into my sight may be inferior as I said earlier- but that does not mean they do not hold certain qualities that have caught my eye. I've never had the chance to see a bankai user and the unknown amount of unique powers a Quincy posses is more than enough for me to ignore the notions of inferiority for the time being. That however, will not stop me from killing them all in the end. Those are my orders from Aizen-sama himself. (Though I am hoping he will allow me to keep one alive for further investigation)

Showing off my abilities? The need to release my different forms is only out of personal defense- I am only the Octavo Espada, and I am fully aware of the limit to my own powers and the powers of my opponents. I will not however, lie that I do not enjoy the attention and thrill of this battle so far. It has been far too long since someone as interesting as Ishida-kun has come in front of me. He has proven to be someone difficult win over, and what I must do to receive his attentions in return is still unclear to me. Yet, I also don't think Ishida-kun has such room as to be making statements about showing off; as if he hasn't been running around, attacking from behind and using that Shinigami as bait to show off his own powers that are able to work in the space I created. All useless against me, of course- but how is he doing anything different than I?

Any interpretations of having an inflated ego is just part of my charming charisma, as you should know well by now.

As for my childhood, there is not much to delve into at the moment. My older brother- Ilfort, was a constant companion of mine. Yet his death at the hands of that red-haired man, is of no concern of mine. I could care less for that weakling-brother of mine. He deserved any fate that was handed to him. Revenge can be so tacky and cliché.

But what should I say in reply to these attacks on my person? Deny my superiority over these idiots who have not been so lucky as to be chosen by God himself- Aizen-sama? Maybe releasing my full-form so soon was a poor-decision on my part- which I blame in part of my own impatience over this annoying situation. Even so, there is no doubt in my mind that this will all end in my victory and I will get want I want from Ishida-kun, with no more problems. But an interesting fight will make the prize all that more enjoyable.

It is very amusing to me that Ishida-kun would go as far as to clear up what he so explicitly stated in his last entry. Putting up a chase just intrigues me more- makes me want him more. I must reassure him that what you might think about someone, is not always the truth of the matter. You must take the time to investigate your subject thoroughly before you make such quick statements as deception. Yet as he so poetically stated, nature has a way of tricking us with beauty and it seems it has done the same thing for me with Ishida-kun. I hope he doesn't hold back in his attacks on me, his unwavering spirit excites me so. That is the spirit of a true fighter, that I can never really understand.

I truly did wish he would have had the decency to try and clean himself up during our little intermission. Even though his bloodstained clothes fit so nicely with the future that awaits him.


Szayelaporro
ps. what would ishida-kun smell like had our situation been different? laundry detergent? soap? he seems like the type of man that would have a very natural scent.

Dear Diary,
I can't help but wonder what a "man of science" would have to gain from studying what he deems "inferior creatures". Surely if he was fully confident in his abilities, such use of his time would not be necessary. It's my personal belief that the time he uses to analyze our abilities is really time spent showing off his own. I assume Szayelapollo had quite the solitary childhood.

This may also be an opportune moment to point out that the same opponents he feels are beneath him, are the same that have forced him to fight at full strength. I can say with no exaggeration that inflated egos are quite the epidemic here in Hueco Mundo. By their standards, Kurosaki and Abarai come off as positively modest. One should not boast without being able to support their claims. As flattered as I am by the unnerving amount of attention the Octavo pays to me, I suggest that he use the time to think of more ways to delay him eminent defeat.

Also: Upon re-reading my last entry I must express my embarrassment in stating my appreciation of Szayel's...appearance. I will not deny that a fact is a fact, but my statement should not be taken for anything more than it's "face value". In nature some of the most beautiful creatures are the most deceptive. No matter how much that may parallel the arrancar's warped views, I will not hesitate to strike, given the chance.

-Ishida

Dear Diary,
I must say, I'm not one to take such criticisms as using 'dirty tactics' during battles without some reply. I cannot take such lies and slander on my name lightly. As I told Ishida-kun and those other mindless idiots, I'm not a fighter- but a man of science. I use my knowledge to my advantage to make up for the brute force that I can't achieve, unlike Yammy or that loud-mouth asshole Grimmjow. I never degrade myself to these 'dirty tactics,' I use my creations and powers to ensure victory. Isn't that what every one, including those inferior people like shinigami and quincy, do when they must enter a battle to win? They might fight when there is no hope of survival, but still go on using whatever they must.

But those things are of no true importance to me, right now I wish to get much closer to Ishida-kun- a quincy. If I could only rid myself of the others, so I could have more one-on-one time with him. It was a pleasant surprise that I wasn't the only one caught up in appearances. I take great pride in keeping my physical presentation (my hair, a special note) up to a certain standard. I must agree that capes are a very important accessory. Now if others would agree with me about gloves...

Sincerely,
Szayelaporro Grantz

Dear Diary,
To my annoyance I must note that our current opponent seems to be more trouble than I originally thought. While I'm flattered that one would take note of my tacky superior fashion sense (I told Abarai that capes were the accessory to have!), good tastes can not excuse dirty tactics on the battlefield. Unlike the others this one does not rely on brute strength, but a scientific mind. The fact that he is charismatic and ...admittedly handsome, would cause the inexperienced to lower their guard. Even I find myself distracted by the familiar way in which he speaks to me... But that hair is something to rival Kurosaki's concerning the strain it puts on my eyes.

...It looks softer, though.

-Ishida.